April 27th, Cait Comes Home. May 7th, Cait Goes Home.

I am split between two places now. It's a new feeling. I came home with a to-do list about a mile long and I'm leaving with a lot of stuff, though considerably fewer belongings, and a feeling of discontent. Maybe the homesickness I feel is for a state of mind, rather than an actual place. Maybe it's for the Caitlin brain of several months ago. I've fielded a few panicked "Sooooo, how are things with you?" conversations over the past few days. Hopefully I've managed to convince people I haven't lost my mind and moved to a hippie commune...though I kind of have. And on Monday, the day after tomorrow (actually, tomorrow, it's 12:35am on Sunday) I'm going to pack my car and drive back home.

It's incredible how overwhelming the city is after four months in Haida Gwaii. I have an incredible new respect for people I know who lived in small towns and moved to larger cities. Everything is just so...much. There is so much noise, so much movement, so many people and cars and things happening everywhere. It's exhausting. I can handle about three hours of being out and about and then I just want to hide and have a nap. Very much looking forward to my island life.